Life is Crazy

 So this weekend my daughter’s car was vandalized because it’s a Kia. Broke out the back window and tore up the steering column. So we are down to one car. Repairs aren’t cheap either but I am blessed. God prepared me for this time. I can see His hand in it all up to this point.

Since we don’t know how long we are down to one car, I asked my best friend if I could borrow one of his many vehicles.  He refused. That pretty much ended that relationship. I just don’t understand. 

Today is my 58th birthday. It’s been one interesting years so far. Life is crazy!

Another 5 years flew by

 So today is 6/4/23. My oldest brother’s birthday.  I’m still fighting the same battles within myself. I reread my previous posts. My poem hit my heart. It was relevant then and it is now. I need to break free from the bondage that has kept me bound for the last few years. I have a purpose and sitting in my home alone is t going to fulfill that purpose. 

COVID was the worst and it’s now it’s been three years later and I’m still feeling the grip of uncertainty. As I write those words, it’s just a crutch for me to lean on. It was very isolating but it’s over. My mind is still there but the world has moved on and so should I. 

Thank you Father for loving me as I am and walking with me when I am dragging my feet. I know you have carried me when I refused to walk. I know you held me when I chose to be inconsolable. You never left me. Even when I rebelled. You were always there, ever watching keeping me safe. Thank you for your unconditional love. Never let me go. Never let me go!  Never let me go!!!

8 years later

I just recovered this email address to find I still have a blog.  I will begin using this as therapy so please forgive me in advance if I offend anyone.

What a strange, wonderful life

My life is officially strange. I have great friends and wonderful family but it is a totally different place or season that I am in. I am unemployed, divorced, may lose the house and just turned 45. Almost all in the same month. It is exciting! Yes, very special...life is definitely interesting to say the least. I need to quit looking inside my box and open the lid. I am sure there are others out there that I can help, encourage or something! I need a life. It is very strange being unemployed without young children. They took my time and attention the last time I was unemployed...my youngest is about to turn 20. I don't think he needs me in the same way as before. God definitely has a sense of humor and I am blessed. 8-)

New Chapter

I am ready to start a new chapter in my life book. I need to stop, smell the roses more often, reflect on my"bucket list" and have at it! Life is too short to sit by and let it happen. It is time I got off of the sideline and jumped in.
Tomorrow starts a new day and a new sentence in my new chapter. It may take a little time to write the first paragraph, but as long as I write each day (take that chance, make that choice) then it will happen. It will happen...

Friendship

Friendship is great but what if that friend is not good for you? What then? Well, sometimes friendships have to end for various reasons. You have to let them go. I have given up a friendship and it is the hardest thing I have done in a long time. It's only been 8 days but it feels like a lifetime. Sometimes I wonder why but then I think-whatever.

Do you ever wonder why you are the way you are? Why you think the way you do? Is it because of your upbringing or is it truly because of the way God made you? Maybe they go hand in hand. Not sure but I think that often. Why? I am definitely not typical and I see life very differently than most. But I can live with that...

Life Goes On!

Okay, it's now 2010! New Year, new time, New Life? Working on that last one. Sometimes change is so dang hard! Why does life have to be that way? To keep us hoppin maybe? Oh well, life goes on and so will I. Some days it is extremely hard to keep walking. Some days it seems very lonely where I am. I have to remind myself that I have great friends and family that care about me. I am truly blessed, I just sometimes forget. On days like today, it's not so bad. Some days though, it is rough. The stupid thing is that we all have days like that and yet we spend them isolated. Duh...that is smart! :0)

Not really, but sometimes if we just reach out beyond ourselves, maybe we would get out of the funk and truly make a difference. I recently watched "The Blind Side" and I could relate to the woman that Sandra Bullock played. I can be that strong and outspoken, not afraid of situations or people. I would reach out to someone like that too. Oh wait, I have just in different circumstances. I just wish I had the same support system. My life might be different now too.

I will get better, I will move on and be what God has set for me. I just want to pass on all of the hard stuff and get there...but I know that if I do, I will miss quite a ride! :0)